Ever had an idea so ambitious? So grandiose, you desperately needed others to share in the potentially life-changing transformation your new idea may take you? I used to become irritated when starting a project that those closest to me would provide a response less enthusiastic than I felt the new idea deserved.
If you’ve read up until this point, my assumption is that there is a degree of relatability. With undiagnosed ADHD characteristics, I have had a plethora of ‘life-changing transformations’ in my thirty years of life. From completing the ‘grassroots’ basic football refereeing course and then preparing my new life as a Premier League referee, to trialling a kickboxing studio twice then finding possible competitions in Vegas.
Unfortunately, some of my failures are more consequential than wasting several weeks of time with a new ‘hobby’. They’re failures of not responding appropriately to situations I should have handled more empathetically. To hide behind a diagnosis for failure to try. Failure to act with kindness, and the most shameful, possibly, regarding faith. Failure to ‘Love thy neighbour’. Unless, of course, I needed something from them.
I’d love to tell you that since becoming a follower of Christ my failures have become limited or non-existent. Even with this new appetite for my Saviour. I still fail. And if I was to apply some honesty… I fail a lot.
There’s many of us on our green earth that cannot find the less-kind, historical actions I have made to merit forgiveness or redemption, which I’m truly saddened by, but I have a Righteous Judge that can. God knows my heart, and that my mistakes now are honest ones, not exploiting the generosity of Him.
So, my prayer tonight will be a long one, as I pray that I can repent, truly repent the failures, large and small, that have impacted on another person’s life.
God Bless.